Okay this DVD is no joke like forreal forreal. I had to take so many breaks throughout it it isnt even funny. But nonetheless I absolutely LOVED this work out. It was so delightfully challenging. I was dripping in sweat, like drenched in sweat you guys. I feel really good this go round about my fitness journey. I feel like I can do it and see results this time y’know. As well as healthier eating ! I found this recipe for cold mocha oatmeal and I am ready to try it !

So today I started P90x, and well lets just say kicked my BUTT!! Today I learned that I have absolutely no upper body strength what so ever. I am working on it though. I’m going to keep at it though, you don’t see results by just giving up y’know, and I don’t plan on giving up at all. To be honest I quite like it a lot. So far P90x has proven to be very fun for me and challenging. You always gotta like a challenge don’t you? haha No pain no gain !

i need to post this so i can get myself back on track

Week 2 update : -3lbs

I plan to update my progress every 2 weeks… so yeah lets wish me luck… right now the goal is 180 by September 1st so lets see what happens shall we :)

Size: 14 - 16 Womens US
Age: 19
Height: 5’9

Current Weight: : 203 lbs
Highest Weight: 250 lbs
Lowest Weight: 165 lbs
Goal Weight: 165 lbs
Favorite Binge Food: cake and cookies
Favorite Exercise?: kickboxing, dancing running

What Makes You Slip Up?: Eating with friends, my mom making cake
What Makes You Strong?:  
that eating healthy and working out makes me feel good

How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day?: too many

What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror?:  a supermegafoxyawesomehot girl who would be crazysupermegafoxyawesomehot if she could let go of the cookies

Are You In A Relationship?:  -__- its uhm complicated, but he eats super healthy soooo yeah

Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends?: Im the “average” or “thick” one… and I dont mind being thick, I just wanna be toned 

Ever Been To A Psychologist?: Therapist count?
Are You On Any Medication?: Birth control

I AM - 

[] anorexic
[] ednos
[] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[] drinking something
[] eating something
[] under 100lbs
[] starving myself
[] participating in a fast
[x] vegan [actually im a pescatarian….]
[x] losing weight healthily

PEOPLE - 

[] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[] spread rumors about me
[] force me to eat
[] say I eat too much
[] wish I’d eat more
[] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] have tried to stop me

I WISH - 

[] I was thin
[x] I had a better body
[] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[] I was under 100lb 
[x] I could avoid food
[] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[] I was prettier
[] I could stop being ana/mia
[] I had a boy/girlfriend
[] I could disappear

I LOVE -

[] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference
[] shaking
[] being weak
[x] losing weight
[] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

I HATE -

[x] when people stare
[] being asked questions
[] having to eat
[x] being single 
[] wearing short skirts
[x] being fat
[x] looking ugly
[x] feeling this way
[] fat people

I NEED -

[x] more support
[x] people to stay out of my business
[] more friends
[] someone to know
[] less food
[x] more water
[x] a gym membership
[x] to lose 50 lbs
[x] to lose 30 lbs
[x] to lose 10lbs

1.Favorite time to workout? 
Morning or Evening

2. Favorite place to workout? 
Living room, to work out videos or at the gym

3. Favorite workout shirt. 
I dont have one 

4. Favorite workout shorts:  
biker shorts



5. Favorite song to listen to while working out.
Beautiful People - Chris Brown ft. Benny Benassi [its so much fun to run to]

6. Weights exercise you like most.
none.. all cardio

7. Favorite post workout snack.
Morning= egg whites on a whole wheat english muffin

Evening= chocolate chip granola bar

8. How do you get to your place of working out? 
I got tired of being fat

9. Would you workout if you didn’t have to in order to stay fit and healthy? 
Id probably still do kickboxing, I dunno I love working out but Im also very lazy 

10. Favorite thing to do to pass time during cardio.
Zone out Im super into it

11. How many times per week do you exercise?
Everyday typically.

12. What gets you most motivated to workout? 
Looking in the mirror and thinking, Imma change this

13. Do you work alone or with a partner? 
usually alone

14. Any embarrassing moments while running or at the gym? 
My thighs kinda sorta clap

15. Water or sports drink?
Water, Green Tea and V8

16. Favorite thing about working out?
The feeling I get afterwards, getting results, I just love it in general

This is currently what I look like in my bikini.. and quite frankly I love being a curvy girl, but this is not cutting it. My goal is not to change my weight but to change my body. I dont care how much I weigh. I would just like to tone and tighten my curves. For a more sleek look.